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                             In a repeat of this scene, I was given a neuroleptic [nerve gas type] drug after singing at a concert in San Francisco.  When I arrived home, I was asked to go to a mental ward by a suspiciously acting father.  I was told by him to take a painless drug, and knowing the Law School faculty, I thought it must be some kind of marajuana.  Instead of finding this true, at the library at the library at Salt Lake Community College in 1995, I happened upon a text that read, "Antipsychotics are the most commonly prescribed drug and 10% of people taking it will die."  It's the drug causing the, "Haldol Shuffle" or the similar, "Harlem Shuffle".  I couldn't very well keep my eyes open after taking it and, experienced paralysis in my legs and neck.  A doctor at the University of Utah Medical Center diagnosed me according to my father's second wife who has a long history of mental health disorders.

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•                              I was told she believes that she is the Virgin Mary.  Because (if) god is a dog, and because she was a strange loner that was drunk all of the time; she is a case of virgin birth.  Since Mary can't understand harm done by her and she and her baby are totally strange, I think they are both cruel dogs.  Mary had a spoiled and stuck-up son David in 1975 and, by 1979, I had no place to live.  Mary Lou Gadbe was my stepmother's maiden name and she told doctors to use Major Tranquilizer to simplify my behavior.  A psychiatrisy, Dr. Helmer, told me this drug replaces lobotomy and I read that it causes CNS damage.  Helmer furthermore said that it is used because of all of the noise and disorder common to the mental wards.  It's effect is about like being slugged in the face all of the time and I think of it as sleep deprivation, also.  I've seen numerous cases of people becoming ugly, lethargic and morose to facilitate a retarded level of mental functioning that in no way sounds professional to a musician.  Moreover, I recently had a heart attack,   "ANTIPSYCHOTIC AGENTS, the primary treatment for schizophrenia and other psychoses, long have been suspected to increase the risk of serious ventricular arrhythmias and, thus, sudden cardiac death."[1]

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•                                                       My father and stepmother were both in the legal profession and neither wanted much exercise.  My swimming career was over before I met my stepmother.  I didn't much care for swim racing at the Fort Douglas in Salt Lake City because it was cold and Tom Thorum the coach asked me to leave the team before high school even started.  While studying, I wrote to Mark Spitz and asked about my gold coin from Mexico and he said it was a real medal.  I skiied frequently and didn't know about muscle until moving out on my own in 1995.  Ever since 1963, I've felt slow and held to the ground and had real difficulty getting out of bed.  I couldn't properly run or jump and was too tired to study so my homework never got done.  In ~ 1972 I found Preludin (easy speed) in my home and for about 3 weeks I could swim as fast as anyone.  And, in 1995 Nancy Farmer the swim teacher at SLCC finally took my time.  It was 0:53:17 in the 100 yard freestyle which is comparable to current world records.  I nearly have my BS degree from the University of Utah in Exercise and Sport Science but, I have little or now use for it.  I thought my professors were basically ignorant.